They’re All Going and I’m Not Feeling It

Tuesday was the first day of school for all of my children. I was really excited in the preparation for the the “big day”, all of the shopping and newness of everything.  I loved meeting the teachers and talking about my children.

However, after getting to school, I felt a bit differently. I was not ready to leave my little Butterfly, even though she loved exploring her new classroom.

I felt anxious and was very tempted to stay the entire day. I didn’t, but I’ll talk about that more another day. So, to clear my mind, I had to set up a list, a rudimentary Pros v. Cons list:


  • Feeling Anxiety on the First Day of School {Not Them, Me} | AprilNoelle.comQuiet house for up to 6 hours a day
  • I can clean an area that will stay clean for more than a few minutes
  • My children will be in a positive learning environment
  • The kitchen can actually be cleaned because I’m not in it all day long
  • I can work on a diet because, again, I’m not in the kitchen all day long
  • I can finish a thought uninterrupted
  • Uninterrupted bathroom breaks
  • Uninterrupted showers
  • Work opportunities
  • I can have lunch dates/meetings
  • Quick store runs
  • If I didn’t get a good night’s sleep, I may actually be able to take a nap
  • They have come home full of excitement every day this week.



  • No more midday snuggle time
  • I’ll miss rocking Butterfly to sleep at nap time
  • Friday movie days are out!
  • Early morning alarm
  • Getting three kids ready for school
  • No tickle times to give me a happy break


Looking at the list, it’s clear that the pros outweigh the cons. I just don’t get to hold them whenever I want. Since they’ve been the center of my life for the last almost five years. I haven’t had too many days where I don’t get to just grab them up and give them a big hug.

Really, I just don’t get to hold them whenever I want. Since they’ve been the center of my life for the last almost five years. I haven’t had too many days where I don’t get to just grab them up and give them a big hug.

Since they’ve been the center of my life for the last almost five years. I haven’t had too many days where I don’t get to just grab them up and give them a big hug.

But I’m starting to love the quiet… and that I can get work done in shorter amounts of time.

Did you struggle with sending your children to their first day of school?



35 comments on “They’re All Going and I’m Not Feeling It”

  1. I feel you!! I did the same list. It is not so easy.

  2. tara pittman says:

    Sending my kids back to school is all pros for me. I have no cons, maybe homework.

  3. Chei says:

    This is so true. Thanks for sharing. great post!

  4. tauyanm says:

    sending my daughter to school is somehow all cons for me. well, she is a big girl now she is 8. pros are she get to socialize and play and learns so many things just by going to school. I get to be with her and spend time together when we do her homeworks and play or read books. But i totally feel you during snuggle time.

  5. victoria says:

    This is so true, I feel you and sometimes I get sad because of the quiet place on anywhere in our house.

  6. Jolleen Ruiz says:

    OMG, my youngest is only two so I have him for a couple more years, but when they are all three in school, that will be so hard 🙁 Hang in there mama!

  7. I felt so torn when I first enrolled my son in preschool. But I knew it was the right decision!

  8. Elizabeth O. says:

    It’s always tough to let go of them! And time really flies. I can remember the first time I dropped my girls at school too and it was a rollercoaster of emotions for me as well.

  9. RUSS says:

    I’m not a mom but I can imagine the mixed emotions of excitement and sepanx when you are to send your kids to school. At least you get some “me-time” aka cleaning time every day. It was funny how you put uninterrupted in your list – must be a huge relief.

  10. Jojo Vito says:

    oh yeah, I can feel for you..but let’s face it , it’s part of their live’s requirements… Just place for a great weekends each time 🙂

  11. Sarah Bailey says:

    I can’t imagine what it is like to send your kids to their first day of school it must be such a shock, with the quiet home x

  12. hahaha well there’s definitely more pros there but I can totally understand your feelings behind this. it is a big step

  13. Making the transition from Mom with the kids at home all day to Mom with kids in school full time is super hard. It will get easier and it does help that the kiddos are so excited to go!

  14. Kendra says:

    My youngest just started going to school so the house does feel a little empty. However, I have a lot of time to do things that I’ve been putting off.

    1. April Noelle says:

      Yes, I have a list that I can actually tackle. It’s nice to think about it.

  15. Nancy Reyes says:

    We have no kids in school here, but we still are up at 6.30 every morning .

    1. April Noelle says:

      Oh my! I used to be a morning person before I had kids. I would likely be up early too.

  16. Liz Mays says:

    Aww, I definitely understand this feeling. It’s so strange not having any of the kids around during the day!

  17. MarciaF says:

    My niece is a work from home mom and she had a terrible time adjusting to her 5 year old going to kindergarten. She still has a 2 year old home 3 days a week so at least she can ease into it.

    1. April Noelle says:

      I know how difficult it can be, although I think I’m happy that I ripped off the band-aid. I think with the three of them, my transition period would be longer if I hadn’t.

  18. Glenda says:

    Even though my Sonia older, I love having my him home with me. Yes there are moments he gets on my nerves but I enjoy ever single second I have with him because he is growing too fast. Your children are all so adorable! (:

  19. I feel the same way about my kids being in school! Its such a mixture of fulfillment and emptiness.

  20. Rose Pingol says:

    Oh, I feel you! That were exactly my thought when all of my children went to school!

  21. Nicole Etolen says:

    Your kids look lovely! I remember the very first day of my son’s schooling, it was a real hard day for me.

  22. Nicole Escat says:

    I am not sure what would be the feeling. My son will be in school next year.

  23. Ryan Escat says:

    I think my wife will be in tears for the first day of school. Surely, we will miss a mess and noisy house when that happens.

  24. Rose Ann Sales says:

    Now I understand why my sister in law acted so weird when her kid goes to school. I am not a parent but I can imagine!

  25. The quiet house is what helps me out a lot. I can get a ton of work done without my attention being elsewhere!

  26. I think all parents go through this struggle. You’re happy for them, but also sad that they won’t be around all day.

  27. CourtneyLynne says:

    Ahhhh it’s so bitter sweet!!!! I was so excited for my duaghter to start school…. And then I started to miss her being around 24/7 lol

  28. Mhaan A says:

    Haven’t experienced this since my little one is still young but if that happens, I will surely miss my kids when they are at school. I think I could handle it until they get old. At least I have free time to do some stuff while they are away.

    Mhaan |

  29. Kandi says:

    I think it gets easier as they get older. Mine are in 5th & 4th grade and honestly- By the 1st day of school I am excited because as much as I love my kids- they have had enough of each other and need routine!

  30. Aziel morte says:

    Yes. I struggle with that situation. Because my little son is now at grade one. And he needs to be learn how to be little independent without my presence in awhile. And they need to communicate with the others to make a circle of friends.

  31. Colette S says:

    I did have a hard time when my kids went to school on their first day. It took some letting go.
    However I still do not like it. I enjoy the times with my kids and I know those times are fleeting.
    I desire to homeschool
    Your little ones are adorable!

  32. aurora says:

    OMG! It always feels weird, isn’t it? You’re so used to them being around and having none of them feels like there’s always something missing.

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