This bible verse has been in my head for the last couple of weeks.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. ~Philippians 4:13
I’ve been struggling with my confidence, my self-worth, my world around me. I know part of this negative speak is because of the heartbreaking news I found out recently, but I know that’s only worsened my doubts, instead of created them.
I set out a few goals at the beginning of the month: making money, losing weight, and organizing my surroundings.
I’ve been making money steadily, hitting close to my goal. I can see myself making more, especially if I commit to writing, and moreover, submitting my writing.
Dropping Gaining Pounds
Because of my grief, I actually gained weight, then took it back off again. But on Monday, I started Les Mills Pump, a dvd workout series that uses weights. It’s probably the closest I’ll get to a CrossFit workout since having left my last gym this summer. I grabbed my weights and put on my cute, not so flattering outfit, carved out a little area and got to work.
Then stopped to tell my girls that they can’t walk through while I’m lifting weights.
Then started again.
Then stopped to move my girls out of the way.
But I did it. I finished.
Day 2 was a rest day, so instead I jumped rope for 10 minutes. Jumping rope is no joke. But I did it… well, I put the timer on for 10 minutes and rested when needed. I was proud that after five minutes, I just didn’t throw in the towel.
I decided to also get a pedometer, so, I’ll update you on how that goes. I’m thankful that I finally got my mind together.
Making Some Cash
I had a few ideas on how to make some money, without getting a job. First, I jumped on OfferUp, which I talked about a few weeks ago. For as much stuff as I had in the garage, I figured this would be the way to go. It’s not. At least not for me. These buyers are crazy. I’ve wasted a lot of time, but it’s inspired a piece that I’m working on.
Next up, mystery shopping. I’ve joined a series of mystery shopping companies and most of them take about an hour of my time between the shop itself and the survey (not including drive time). They are fairly simple, but the high paying ones are competitive. I managed to get quite a few. I’m not sure why someone would want to even waste their time calling a dealership for $2, but I’m sure someone does it, since the pay hasn’t increased.
Third, I sold a couple of spots on my blog and social media accounts. I really need to go down this route more since some of them are really easy (especially the social media shares). Granted, it’s only easy because of the work that I did before to build my social media account following and engagement.
I’m thankful that I managed to get really close to my goal.
A Closet Less Junky
Last year, I bought a closet for my crafts, which quickly became the junk closet. At the beginning of this year, I had to straighten it up just a bit since my husband wanted use of another closet that my crafts were actually inhabiting. That was it. Now, it’s fairly clean and organized except one area. I need a solution for temporary filing. I’m working on it.
I’m thankful to be able to get into my closet and see what’s there.
This summer has stressed the need for flexibility and understanding in parenting. I’ve struggled, cried, and worried about how my children will grow up. Mom groups have saved me. I’m in two mom groups, made a couple of friends and go to a women’s bible study. It’s helped immensely. Plus, I came across this awesome picture:
For these things, I’m truly grateful.
Conquering the Writing World
As much as I want to grow as a writer, I haven’t done as much as I should. What I have done has landed me in a second anthology!
Over the last year, I have questioned who I am outside of being a mother. I’ve struggled finding out where I fit in. Before SAHM-hood, I was the money maker (not particularly the breadwinner), but I brought in a pretty penny. Now, I’m accountable to someone else for every dime I spend.
I can’t believe it took me so long to realize that others felt that I was all of these things. I mean, dependable and efficient, I’m all over it, but a leader, creative, kind? I often feel like I cut people off so quickly, but these colleagues see something completely different. I’m grateful to have them in my life, not just to be able to talk to them as adults, but also that they see something in me that I’m not sure I see within myself.
I’m grateful that my girls are growing up strong and secure.
I love that we’ve found a routine that makes it interesting and fun for me and my girls. As much as I’m a homebody, we go somewhere every morning, just to give them a different atmosphere and other people to play with.
I’m finally feeling better, making sure that I get things done, like write this blog post, as well as the other for this week. I have missed everyone and I’ve been so tired, drained and depressed that I really couldn’t post more than once a week. I finally feel like I can breathe again.
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This week’s words are Mystery and Breathe.